Head in the Game

Warning: This post contains references to real life and some readers may find it boring as shit.


I have a court date coming up this week that has been eating away at my mind for the past month. It isn't anything criminal mind you, just another page in a long and horrible divorce that has been dragging on for over eight years now. And no, I'm not going to bore you with details.

Suffice to say that after well over a half-million dollars it all boils down to a measly paltry sum of remaining money that I simply just don't have. And that is the part that is driving me crazy. I essentially sacrificed a successful business and my entire life savings in the pursuit of happiness - and to have it all come down to something so meaningless is frustrating. I never once didn't pay, in fact, no one wants this to be over more than me. If I had it, it'd be done.

I freely admit that this continuing saga has not only preyed upon the quality of my life out here in the real world, but also my in-game life as well. It is difficult to focus on my projects and my commitments with this hanging over my head.

The last time I brought this up in these pages I received some pretty nasty comments. I appreciate the fact that divorce and marital support are important issues. And many may wonder why I even bother bringing them up in the context of a gaming blog. Frankly, I need somewhere to talk about it. Even just writing what I have written so far has helped. That's why I put the warning up there.

My head isn't in the game. And I've been aware of this for quite some time. In fact, even as far back as when we decided to stay out of this year's Alliance Tournament - this was one of the biggest reasons why. I knew this was going to happen.

I've always been hesitant to drag real life into these pages. For the longest time I completely refused to do so. But over the past few years it has become increasingly apparent to me that I shouldn't have worried. Take it or leave it, this is me writing here every day. Rixx is after all an imaginary virtual construct thru which I play a game. He is an awesome guy, don't get me wrong, but he has been built primarily out of my own imagination. Everything that makes him more than just another avatar, has been dreamed up and put into action out of my head.

Every word I've ever written has been about me.

All of which is my way of saying bear with me while I try to avoid jail time on Wednesday. Cause, despite what you might think, I'm not an actual Pirate.

Onward and upward.



20 comments:

  1. Praying you guys can work something out and get the monkey off both your backs.

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  2. My thoughts and prayers are with you as well Boss man. Keep the faith man, you'll come through this!

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  3. My good wishes and sympathy are with you. I am touched that you shared your trouble with us. I know from experience that divorces are horrible, but they should never last as long as yours has. Stay strong and come back to us.

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  4. Hope all gets clean and done! Be well!

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  5. Good luck. My won divorce was "final" in 2005 after a 2 year process, but I'm still doing the whole child support thing (9 years down, 5 to go. . . . ) and it doesn't sound like it's cost me as much overall as it has for you, but it's still made the last 9 years very "interesting" from a financial standpoint.

    Divorce sucks, any way you slice it, imo.

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  6. Just a casual reader wishing you all the best.

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  7. Thanks everyone for the support and the well wishes. Let me say this straight up, it was totally worth it and it remains worth it. My first marriage was abusive and pretty horrible from many perspectives. I've been happily married to an amazing and wonderful woman for the past four years. And while we still have our challenges, our marriage is as close to perfect as you can get. It has been a rough eight years, but it can't last forever. Eventually it has to end.

    Your words do mean a lot to mean. So thank you.

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  8. Judges are surprisingly reasonable people, even if lawyers aren't. Good luck.
    - Ouso Borghese

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  9. RL > EVE - and there is nothing wrong with being reminded of that in the blogs we read.

    Good luck with your court case. Glad you have found one of the good partners after the experience of your previous one.

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  10. I know divorces can be painful and sometimes the Ex can be the real pain in the you know where... God speed m8!

    Moonsoon

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  11. At least she can't poison you anymore keep fighting the good fight

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  12. Good luck and keep the faith. Hoping my life circumstances will allow me to join Stay Frosty soon.

    -Zgeik

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  13. been through two divorces myself. I wish you the best M8

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  14. I hope your situation solves in the best way possible, and all for the good. Keep the courage, boss. You just have to get through this. Just let go of any angry thoughts, and I am sure things will be good. Best of luck!

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  15. Good luck! And no worries about letting your RL shine through - I do it as well.

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  16. Keep the faith, man. We're behind you.

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