A Public and Rather Humiliating Apology for Hurting the Feelings of Eve's Top Ranked Pirate Corporation

Dear Top Ranked Pirate Corporation,

How do I even begin to express how deeply sorry I am for all of the bad things that I have done, the words, the images, the videos, that have hurt your feelings over the past seven months?  It seems that I must sincerely ask for your patience and understanding as I work back from the very beginning.

Once, long ago, I was a soldier in the darker reaches of Null Security space. I had gone to Null the first week I played Eve and had spent two years fighting other people's wars. I knew nothing of Low Security space or the people that played there. But slowly and surely I began to hear of a group of players that had fun playing Eve, a group that dared to fly Solo, but who would come to a fellow player's aid when needed. My path took me in a different direction, to Syndicate and eventually to my own Corporation.

When we finally moved in to a nearby system, I finally had the chance to fly with you. For eighteen months I flew often with some great pilots in both your corp and in Shadow. We had many great gangs of insanity on those Sunday night roams. And we also fought, but the fights were good fights. And I admired your Code from afar.

When my life, my business and my Corporation began to finally fall apart around me, it was you that I chose to fly with. I ignored invitations from everyone else in New Eden and made my home with you. I didn't play much at first, so many other things having become a priority in my life. But when I did, I learned a lot from all of you. From what I considered to be great pilots. I no longer had to look up to you, I was a part of you. I believed.

I realize now that I must have done something to warrant your anger. My Irish blood can be stubborn and pig-headed at times, I'm rather notorious for it. So I can sympathize with your dilemma, you must have felt no other alternative but to banish me from your ranks. I tried to apologize then, but my words obviously failed me. So I tried to walk away quietly, but I was foolish and let the voices of a few dozen members sway me into making a stand. I was used for other people's gain, I realize that now. I feel like such a fool.

None of that is an excuse for what I did next. And I know now just how much hurt, pain and suffering I've caused you since then. My decision to build an old-school Solo and Small Gang Corporation in the station next to yours must have seemed to you the actions of an angry man, and for that, I do sincerely apologize. Our group of lay-back newbies and true solo pilots must have seemed like a darkening storm cloud of insult to your very existence, and I can honestly assure you that was never my intention.

You have every right to War Dec us, station camp us, follow us around New Eden, smart bomb our pods, write Anonymous comments on my blog and killboard insulting me and dragging me through the mud, I deserve it. God knows I deserve much, much worse. All I want is to make you feel better, to calm your nerves and to prostrate myself before you. And humbly, sincerely, and with all my heart, ask for your forgiveness.

Please forgive me for telling everyone you are a Bully, when clearly it is me that has acted like one. All those horrible things I've done, what ever possessed me? I have seen the error of my ways and am a changed man. I promise.

Please forgive me for calling Meebz a bad pilot. That one throw away line buried deep within a post was uncalled for and mean-spirited. The context isn't important, words hurt and I know that now. Can you find it within your expansive heart to forgive me?

Please forgive me for all the times in the last seven months that I've derped myself into you. I foolishly thought that if only you could kill me a few dozen times, it might satisfy your anger and make you feel better. But I was foolish, certainly my crimes against you demand far more sacrifice. I am prepared.

Please forgive me for building a great and successful 150 man Old-School Pirate Corporation in your System. My God, what was I thinking!?! I can only imagine how badly this must have pierced your soul and cause you such extreme anguish. I promise to stop kicking your spies and to publicly announce our ops so that you have time to mobilize to another region and properly set-up your black ops gangs.

Like I said before, I am sorry. And I am prepared to make the ultimate sacrifice to prove my sincerity. If, as I suspect, my actions have indeed caused you to feel bullied, picked on, or otherwise hurt in any way... I will quit Eve.

If that is what it takes... if that is what you want... if me being in local causes you such anguish, such pain and suffering, then I will be a man and go. I never wanted to hurt you.

Gosh darn it, that was the last thing I wanted.


I am humbled. You were right all along. I see that now. The darkness in my soul has consumed me. I fear for my eternal.

I must pay.



>sniff<



35 comments:

  1. Rixx? RIXX!?! Wake up you're having a bad dream!

    Or is this a pod person?!? This cannot be Rixx..there is no spiffy image to go along with the post..

    If the real Rixx is in there somewhere, talk to me buddy!

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    1. IMages hurt feelings too my friend, images hurt feelings too.

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  2. That has to be the most humble, straight from the heart, honest and well meaning apology that I have ever come across. Hats off to you sir.

    Rainbows, Unicorns, Butterflies and Ponies errwhere, alltime, errday.

    o7

    I may play again soon, the new reclining sofa and 60" are starting to feel common place now. :) I can start relaxing and playing games again, Sam and Dean Winchester have things under control and we are no longer in imminent danger of losing the universe to the forces of EVIL.

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    1. Thanks man, It took everything in me to pour those words out this morning. My therapist has been a huge help in this process and I owe everything, every little mountain of progress, to her. She hasn't quit on me and gosh darn it to Hell, I'm not gonna quit on her.

      Now get back to Eve ya lug! We miss ya

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  3. Wot, yo hav Irish blood? Tat changes evryting..

    @Min Hevn: so long since I watched supernatural I accidentally bought season 4 a second time recently thinking I hadn't seen it yet.

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    1. Bought an entire new living room and TV, kept the amazing home theater system we have. decided to watch Supernatural to break it in. Had never seen it, we are in season ....5? now.

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  4. He mad? Yeah he super mad!

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    1. Whoa Anonymous commenter on the Internets you have cut me to the quick!

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    2. I'm sure you're old enough to of heard of John Wayne? Well he has a line in a movie that you should subscribe to. It goes like this: "never apologize, it's a sign of weakness!" Another line goes like this: "Life is hard, it's even harder if you're stupid."

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    3. Unfortunately for those of you who live life by following quotes you hear in movies, they also contain lines like :

      "I'll believe ya when me shit turns purple and smells like rainbow sherbet."

      "Okie silly dilly dokie-o. I'm an idiot."

      "There was a time when we'd take a guy like you in the back and beat you with a hose. Now you've got your God-damned unions."

      Which of these quotes applies to you, Captain Wessette?


      *Hint: The answer is "all of the above"*

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    4. Is that the same John Wayne that said, "There were great numbers of people who needed new land, and the Indians were selfishly trying to keep it for themselves."? I believe it was.

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  5. The sarcasm is strong with this one. Keep shooting tuskers, at least your boys give me some fun fights.

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  6. How many times have you swore to stop writing about them? You are really coming off like an obsessive ex

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    1. About who? I didn't mention any names, you are really making some big assumptions.

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    2. Definitely obsessive ex.

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    3. Just because you call a fish a lion, doesn't make it a lion.

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  7. Just let go Rixx, the 150 pilots you gathered around you deserve better than a CEO that came out of a Miguel de Cervantes novel. The simple truth is that this "rivalry" is all in your head. We couldn't care less, we have no hurt feelings, we simply shoot stuff that isn't blue and we have no blues.

    Morin.

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    1. Easy for you to say Morin, you aren't the one being bullied. The actions of a few of your mates prove your words false. This has never been about a Corporation, but the juvenile actions of a few individuals tolerated by a self-righteous dictator that no one stands up to. Or, well, not without being kicked.

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    2. Yeah that's him the John Wayne thats afraid of horses

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  8. Rixx, I send this out of the utmost respect, and as someone who has no "dog in the fight." I haven't been in game for almost a year, but I keep up with things. I think some salient words are in order:

    "Eve is, after all, just a game. And while it is easy to get caught up in the day-to-day bullshit of the game, it is after all, nothing to be upset about. Crossing that paradigm and landing in the land of understanding, is the key to long-term success in New Eden. It certainly was for me back in the early days. I struggled with it and nearly rage quit a few times, walked away, pounded my desk, railed at the moon. But slowly you come to the realization that the days continue to move forward, those that threatened or demanded have stopped playing and you are still here. Time moves on."

    You may wish to consider taking your own advice, as it seems from my end that you are not moving on. Just my .02 isk.

    Ian

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  9. There seems to be some confusion. I'd like to clear some of it, if that is even possible.

    For me, as an individual, I could not possibly care less about another Pirate Corporation and their feelings about me - one way or the other. I play Eve, I shoot ships and sometimes those ships explode.

    I said this as CEO. Some people had the gall to demand an apology. This is one. I have nothing to apologize for, but I did so anyway. For the same reason I would lose a ship to protect a Corp mate. My pilots and I are both tired of this endless bullshit. And since I am the only one with a massively awesome blog on either side of this fence, I am the one that has to take the heat for it.

    So be it.

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  10. http://cdn.memestache.com/2012/6/18/f668ef4b9e1ba0206ff2ce3bb2b3d9e5.jpg

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    1. It is content, and it has worked. War is hell, war is fun. Let it be. Fun.

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  12. Why would a Pirate Corps. wardec another Pirate Corps. who they can likely shoot anyplace, anytime, anyway? Well, that's something that only the Corps. that declared war can answer, honestly or not. And I could be wrong, but I don't think it was Rixx's Corps. that did the wardec, I think it was 'the other guys'. A Pirate Corps. wardeccing another Pirate Corps. is just plain stupid imo as it's essentially pointless.

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    1. We don't War Dec cause it is dumb. As I said above this isn't OUR War. Since day one we've played Eve the way we want to play it and not allowed anyone to tell us different. Some people apparently don't like that very much.

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    2. perhaps an investigation of the number of nonflashies in either corp would reveal the answer?
      if there is non it is indeed pointless

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    3. As a member of stay frosty I can tell you the "war" has no impact on anything , pirates fight everyone, wardec is big grey and irrelephant

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    4. Average sec status of stay frosty is only about -3, which is nonpirate. http://evewho.com/corp/Stay+Frosty. They can RP as pirates I guess, but the wardec is needed to remove sentry guns.

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    5. That's funny. Most of those with positive sec status are newbs trying low sec for the first time, I guess they need that War Dec to protect themselves from all those one year olds flying rifters and tristans huh?

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    6. Rixx they are worried we would use the younglings as bait cuz its what they would do. What happens is they lose shit to our good pilots that choose to engage them so they need to fix their kb by station camping noobs kinda sad I think but I guess if that's your play style that good kb is all they have left a relic of when they actually had good pilots.

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  13. Rixx my friend, keep it coming. I can't stop laughing with the drama. Even I know who is who and the reactions only proves your sarcarsm hit a nerve (actually multiple nerves). lol

    Krull

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    1. Finally someone who "gets" it. I was beginning to worry.

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