The Long Road


(PLEASE NOTE: The following post contains references to real events in the author's actual life. I know that for some of you this can be traumatic and often indecipherable, so I want to give you time to return to your previous programming. I'm also planning on being brutally honest and I know how you can get when I do this.)

I had to start this over. I just learned that another good friend on mine has terminal cancer. That's two that are fighting for their lives as I write this. This kind of news hits you hard and makes you think. About your own life, about the transient nature of life in general and our own moment in the sun. Certainly any news like this gives us all pause. I know it does me. I've known this gentleman since 1987, we worked together at my first professional job. In side by side cubicles. Both of these friends played significant roles in my life and in my career. One of them I had a chance to re-connect with over the past few years, the other one... well, we shall see.

That reconnection is necessary because of what I started writing this post about in the first place. But now the energy is gone, like a vapor in the wind. So I'm going to pocket the rant about time and re-birth and instead just get down to the point of it all. I'll spare you the long philosophical build-up. I'm sure you are grateful for the respite.

The point being that almost everything in my life burned down five years ago. I didn't know it at the time, (how could I?) but those five years would be enlightening, revelatory, and life-changing. A lot has happened in those five years and I'm not the person I was back then. My life is both infinitely better and also significantly different now. If you think about your own life five years ago, I'm sure you feel much the same way.

So let's move this post to be more about Eve, our community and my professional life. I want to first thank you all once again for your tireless support of me over the years. My readers, my fans, and all of you that I have crossed paths with at one point or another. I can assure you this is not a post about quitting, or stopping, or anything like that. In fact, despite the dark opening paragraphs this is a celebratory post. On August 1st I will be starting a brand new chapter in my life. Just as I was beginning to consider looking for a new job, a couple of gentlemen appeared and offered me one.

A good one. We still have a long road ahead of us before I can say, "we've made it", but this is a huge step in the right direction for us. This community of ours, or whatever you want to call it, has been an important part of our lives these past five years. A lifeline. A place to play, to cast aside the worries of the day, to try new things, to explore, to have fun, to share, to talk, and to make connections that truly mean something. I know my wife and I consider many of you reading this post as our friends. And I can only hope you feel the same way. Even if we've never met. Although at this point, we've certainly met a lot of you. And we hope to have the chance to meet more in the future.

There were two moments when you saved us. Some people out there want to make those moments out to be more than they were. We needed help and hundreds of people reached out to help. If we hadn't gotten that help our lives would be much different right now. That's as simple as it gets. And because of that help we are in the position we are today. Along with a lot more help from friends and family you don't even know about.

We will never, ever forget that. Or all of those that have supported me on Patreon, or have bought things from me on RedBubble or thru commissions. All of which has helped along the way. Thank you. I can't say it enough.

So I will be taking the Patreon down in the next few days. I want to reach out to everyone first and write each one a special thank you note. The RedBubble store will also be coming down in the next few weeks. It served its purpose, to show certain people how easy it was to do, but without access to IP it is pointless. And once I finish those items on my Project List, I will no longer be accepting further community projects for isk. I may continue to consider special projects for the community, charity, or other special needs along the way. I want to wait and see what my time looks like before I decide on closing the door on those.

Essentially I just want to get back to playing Eve again without feeling like my time would be better spent working. Which is how it has felt these past few years. And writing in these pages, and doing my podcast, and finally taking the time to work on art that is for me.

Onward and upward my friends. Thank you.


PS: I'm already having second thoughts about the RedBubble store. So that may be staying up after all. Sorry, sometimes I get carried away.


12 comments:

  1. Congrats Rixx, I can't wait to hear about the new job! It's been quite a roller-coaster following along with your fortunes; thank you for sharing it, despite the ups and downs. I hope the good moments more than compensated for the bad ones.

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    1. It is easy to fall into the trap of despair and doom and gloom. And while there have been many of those moments these past five years, there have also been incredible moments of friendship, of accomplishments, adventures, new corporations, new alliances, conquests, challenges overcome, and enduring memories that I will have for the rest of my life. Not to mention hundreds of pieces of art :)

      It has been a wild journey.

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  2. I'm glad things have taken a turn for the better. I hope you'll find self-fulfilment at that job, as well as respite from 5 years of hardship. Good luck to you !

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  3. I wish you all the best for your journy. Thank you for all your work so far. Hope to see you some time again.

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    1. We are already talking about Fanfest! Hope to see you there

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  4. I don't think that you should shut the store, as long as you can just upkeep it. For you it might be just a Told-you-so-in-your-face, but to the people who bought items from it, it certainly is a project & artwork worth their hard earned money. Sellers and buyers share a link of mutual confidence, IMHO.

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    1. I agree, I was caught up in the rush of writing and had regrets as soon as I hit the Publish button.

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    2. (Off topic, kinda)

      The Long Road -I knew I had read that title somewhere else...

      https://youtu.be/llB5uZr4Ye8

      Awesome tune by Mark Knofler!

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    3. Great tune by a great guitarist

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  5. Occasional lurker here.

    Very glad to hear about the improvements in your life, and I'm hoping that it'll continue to improve more.

    All the best in your endeavors and good luck! o7

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