When I first logged into Eve back in 2008 I spent the bare minimum of time creating my avatar. I seriously never expected to be playing a "video game" longer than a few weeks, maybe a month? I didn't know anything about Eve, hadn't heard of it before, and no idea what to expect. So that very first avatar was a throw-away for all intents and purposes. I heard Eve came from a company in Iceland, so I named my character after Reykjavik. (Rixx Javix)
That first avatar only lasted a few weeks, maybe a month. About the same time I realized that Eve was not going to go away like all the other video games before it, because it wasn't just a video game. I quickly re-did my avatar. I call the second one my 'soldier' avatar. It is the one that I held during my Null Sec Wars Period. Avatars were easier back then. It was fine for what it was.
As time goes along and your character becomes more than 'just' a digital avatar, when it becomes a reflection of yourself, then things start to become more serious. And they require a bit more thought. Luckily the Character Creator evolved along with that change over the years. And Rixx has evolved along with it. I still don't spend a lot of time on my avatar, I rarely change anything. Any clothes I've added have been ones gifted to me from Corp mates or friends. I've never bought a single item of clothing for myself. I probably never will. Unless by some miracle we start walking in stations.
My avatar is important, but it isn't very important. In my mind the bare nature and slow change is all part of Rixx's character, as much a part of who he is as to what he represents. Rixx doesn't like change much either, he is a rock. He is, in so many ways, the opposite of his player. A reflection of constant manner against a real life of turmoil and stress. Or at least he has been for the past four years. I had enough stress and change in my real life during that time, why create more?
Where do we go next together Rixx and I? I don't know. That question has been bugging me for the past few months. It is no surprise that as my life outside of Eve continues to evolve, and in some ways settle down finally, my interior life within New Eden is feeling a tiny bit... stale? That's not the right word, but it is close.
Stay Frosty is pondering a move. Maybe that will be enough to quell the restless spirit for now. Maybe not. This is, after all, a journey we are on together.
And none of us know where it is leading.
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