I've done other tutorial style videos over the years, but I've never landed on a style that I enjoy and that I believe can last into an entire series. It has been a source of personal frustration for me. And, while I'm not entirely sure of what I'm doing, I finally decided that I should just do it anyway. Slam those negative voices in my head back into the basement and get on with it.
Part of that frustration stems from the fact that I always feel like I'm still learning when it comes to Eve Online. Writing a tutorial is, somewhat, implicit in the acceptance of yourself as some sort of expert. Else why would you be arrogant enough to share your supposed expertise. Being "terrible" at Eve is a badge of honor and has evolved over the years as a shorthand for a "Whatever" approach that works well when things go badly. As most of us who engage in Eve on the regular can attest. Just yesterday I decided to jump into a Garmur for some roaming action and quickly discovered that I am insanely rusty when it comes to zooming around at 6k speeds. And it wasn't that long ago that I felt I had mastered speed and manual piloting skills. But take some time away from something and you quickly find out how fast those skills can atrophy. Of course, by the end of the roam things had already started to improve.
Truth is, after playing this game for so long I have a lot of knowledge and experience to share. So I should just get on with it. But I'm going to do it in my own way and in my own time. This video is a first step in that direction. And we'll see how things evolve over time. I know I want to keep them short and as entertaining as possible. And I have a bunch planned out in my notebook.
I'm trying to build an exceptional YouTube channel. I'm having a lot of fun doing it and I'm still kicking myself for not having focused on it even earlier. But I'm working on it. It is slow going and often frustrating in various ways. But I'll keep going as long as I can to try and make it into something I can be proud of. The rest is out of my hands.
Pretty much like everything else in life.
All we can do is keep chugging along.