After Hours Season 2 Episode 1 with Feiryred

We're back baby and better than ever! After Hours is now being hosted on AudioBoom and you can visit our custom page if you want to bookmark it right here!

I'm excited about getting the new season underway and I'll be loading the last of the previous season up on YouTube in the coming weeks. In the meantime you can still catch all of last seasons episodes over on Crossing Zebras.

Enjoy the new episode and let me know what you think.

It Lives!

The Toothpaste Fish Citadel lives! Shortly after it went up this morning I fitted it up with missiles and bomb launchers and tried to get it into warp... but so far it refuses to move. I need to watch some tutorials I guess. I suspect it won't fit into anything smaller than a Large Plex, but still, it should be very effective at chasing larger targets.

I also couldn't find any prop mods on the market in Jita. Puzzling.

The Pit Chronicle

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That is The Pit Chronicle which was only ever seen by a handful of corp mates back in December 2008 in the Phoenix Industrial Corporation, my very first corporation. I had only been playing Eve for three months when I made that. It was never finished because we started playing around with a website idea, or a blog, who knew what we were doing? I thought it would be fun to bring it to light finally and let you see it. We've come a long way in nine years.

And so has Eve. And so has the world really.

Enjoy this peek into history.

The Long Break is Over

The Long Break is Over. I often title my posts before I write them, I suppose it is a form of personal challenge. Here, write that! More often than not I end up changing the title once or twice as the words pour out of me. But in this case I don't suspect that will happen. However, should you be reading this post under a different title, just know that I started writing it under the "The Long Break is Over" title.

You may not be aware of the fact, given how busy I have been on Twitter, or in my Podcast, or in my continuing support of Community events and projects, or in running an Alliance, three attempts at the Alliance Tournament, and producing artworks, logos, wallpapers, and running the most successful Non-Eve Store this side of the actual and real Eve Store - that I've actually been on a break during the last two years. But I have been.

This comes to mind today because I'm preparing to celebrate my 10th year anniversary of playing Eve on Thursday. Even though I realized today that it is actually 9 years of playing Eve and not 10 at all. September 21, 2008 is 9 years ago. So whatever, I'm celebrating anyway. Nine years is also awesome. Apparently nine years of Eve has taken its toll on my brain and rendered me incapable of basic math functions. Let's pretend the 10 thing never happened and go with 9.

Despite my math struggles I've been thinking back a bit lately in light of the upcoming anniversary date. And I've realized that I have been on a break for a long time. Not a traditional break in the sense that you never log in, or you step away, or anything. But a mind break. A break of the soul if you will. The origins of this break are obvious in hindsight. A little over two years now my post-divorce, post-business world was running pretty smoothly. My consulting work was going great and my new business venture was keeping me busy. And then everything sorta fell apart all at once. Back then, and this is really almost three years ago now, I didn't talk about my private life so much. But my legal problems hit new highs just as my business partner was diagnosed with cancer. And, like a proverbial house of cards, everything that had been building over the years previously - came crashing down.

It became difficult to justify playing a video game when my real life needed my direct attention. Play, or try to make money. And I still managed to play here and there when I could, but overall the decision became more and more difficult to justify. Artwork could be done because it served the greater purpose of padding my portfolio, exposing my work to new audiences, and often paying those bills. A ray of hope even emerged around that time, CCP wanted to work with me to sell my work.

It is difficult to convey just how stressful those times were on myself, my wife and our family. Now, in the light of history, I can start to look back and take stock. For so long I've only allowed myself to look forward, because backwards was just too painful. If you've suffered any sort of trauma in your own life, a death, a disease, a devastating loss, then you understand. And while I didn't suffer much in those traditional areas - mine was just stretched out over a very long period of time.

Luckily, those days are for the most part behind us. Thanks in large part to you my readers and fans, the greater Eve community, and to CCP as well. Not to mention the understanding and friendships of those in my own Alliance and in Stay Frosty. The in-game systems and people running them are so amazing that they continue running despite my personal issues. I cannot say enough about the pilots that I am fortunate enough to fly with. Such great people.

If you've made it this far, and I wouldn't blame you if you had given up several paragraphs before - I just wanted to say Thank You again. My life is being re-built one brick at a time and things are finally starting to make sense again. That optimism and hope is due in large part to the friendships that have been forged over the last nine years. And they each served as a light in the darkness that I often found myself in. A darkness which often threatened to overwhelm me.

But I keep going. Mostly due to the hardheaded determination my family is rather famous for, but also because I couldn't let you down.

I feel like I've emerged from a long tunnel back into the light of day. It is easy to forget how bright daylight can be.

Now, when I struggle to find the time to log into Eve, it is because I have a great full-time job and a full family life that demands my attention. Which is how it should be. How it was before. And hopefully, how it will be going into the future.

It may not be ten years yet, but in many ways, it feels like a lifetime.

JUDGEment Day

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The JUDGEment Day shirt is now available on my RedBubble store!

So for the last week I've been essentially out of Cellular range and limited to a sporadic WiFi connection and rules about engaging in "social media" while in the deep woods of a work-related retreat. Which sounds much worse than it was, it was actually a really good week. But, being away as I was, I missed a few things.

Having expended my usual effort in support of certain candidates for CSM who align counter to certain other parties, as I always do, this week's news was rather disappointing. The worst part was reading the smug posts coming from the so-called diplomats on the Goon side of things. We can all sit here all day and debate the details of this entire sad chapter in Eve's history, but betrayal has and always will be a part of the game. I personally find it reprehensible, but that doesn't mean it doesn't happen. In other words, I wouldn't do it, but I fully expect others to do it.

That isn't the disappointing part. The sad part to me is how easily The Judge got used. I mean if the reports from the sources are correct and at least marginally factual, this guy turned like an Apple Dumpling. A few "Poor Babies" and "I'm listening" sessions and he was ready to betray his comrades to the very forces that they had been fighting against for years. The backbone of a jellyfish.

Today I told him that he should have called me or texted me the day after the CSM dinner when he was walking around Reykjavik searching for his courage. He should have and he should have told me everything, because my advice would have been freaking EPIC.

So you are pissed off at Gigx and you want to engineer the greatest heist slash backtab in Eve history? Ok, not my thing, but I can see the point of it. Why not make it truly grand and double-cross those cheeky bastards that think you are a pushover? In no time at all I could have put a deal together with another player group (unnamed) and we could have stuck it to Co2 AND Goons at the same damn time. Imagine how much more epic that would have been?

What a missed opportunity for legendary status.

Oh well, this is what happens when you are so damn good at the Meta game that no one knows you are so damn good at the Meta game. That CCP employee that wants to know more about how it is done is talking to the wrong people.

And sorry Judge. History is not going to be kind.

Next time call me first.

After Hours Season Two

After Hours will be returning here shortly after a Summer break. I took a break for two reasons, 1) Because it was Summer and we had the Alliance Tournament, and 2) Because I needed a new microphone. The microphone I had was a pain in the ass to be honest. Especially when I finally discovered that it was the reason my audio would often garble out and get funky bad. So today I installed a new audio rig based around a Spaceship Gray (of course!) Blue Yeti with shockmount, screen, etc. I just ran it thru some VO practice and it sounds amazing.

I want to say a special thank you to Niden and the folks over at Crossing Zebras for hosting the first season of the podcast. Originally, After Hours was going to be one of the first podcasts associated with another service provider, but delays and other issues caused me to have to search for a home quickly. CZ was awesome in picking me up quickly and giving me a home for the first twenty episodes. So thanks for that.

But now that I have twenty episodes under my belt and a nice fat Summer break behind me, it is time to bring the podcast back home. So season two will be self-hosted on a server my good friend and fellow Alliance pilot Ramdar is setting up for me. And new episodes will be heard right here on Eveoganda. Where they should be.

In the meantime I'm working hard on getting season one episodes up on my YouTube channel, so look for those to start hitting over the next week. I have quite a backlog to get posted there.

It is extremely important to me that this blog, my work, the podcast, and my playing choices inside of Eve remain independent. Anyone who knows me or has read this blog at all should know how important that is to me. Independence doesn't mean neutral, despite what some of you might think. I have my own opinions and my own goals. But A Band Apart, Stay Frosty, and myself remain staunchly independent. It is very often a hard choice and an even harder way to live in Eve. It certainly is never the easy choice. But I don't make choices because they are easy, I make them because I believe in them. And I always will. No matter what.

So it is with some measure of sadness that I have to cut my official ties to Crossing Zebras. Certain affiliations have recently changed, and while those decisions are theirs to make - I cannot be associated with them. As much as I like the people involved, I simply cannot take the risk that things may change even further in the coming weeks and months. Because they often do. Better to make this break now and see how things develop from the sidelines.

Which all happened while I was considering moving the podcast anyway. So no big deal.

I've essentially decided to cut ties with all Eve media establishments, not just CZ, and remain fiercely independent as always. This way I don't have to keep up with who is sleeping with who anymore. It is easier and frankly, the way I prefer it. Who can keep track?

Onward and upward.